I Heart Lit Crit
I couldn't sleep last nightMy ears were ringing in my head
Best friends with the boogie man
I may be better off here dead
Running on empty once again
Too tired for tears I dread
Sink deep into those magic dreams
While I blast off in my bed
tired. got back from lubbock last night around midnight. came home and fell asleep immediately. been trying to do calc all day. confused and frustrated. did some scholarships apps. went to lunch at pei wei with my brother and then rented eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. looking forward to watching that and then gray's anatomy later tonight. will be a much needed break from academics.
lubbock was...amazing. well no actually lubbock sucked and was boring. but the trip was a lot of fun. breaks down like this:
1. left fri morning. had starbucks.
2. busride there consisted of sleeping, talking, catch phrase, lunch break in nowheresville, and then sleeping through octopussy, the worst james bond movie ever,
3. got to lubbock around 5 and then studied and joked around with langford, clarisssa, megan, and yasmine until 8:45 when we all went to dinner. food was ok and then we had desert. it was only the best brownie sunday ever. orgasm in the mouth (or as jeff says a mouthgasm). delicious.
4. stayed up late (2 am) talking and goofing around and watching Citizen Kane (bad movie) with the lit criters.
5. went to the competition sat morning, almost died cus waldo's a crazy driver. studied, took the test, waited, verified, were told we won, realized they were wrong, got 4th, were kind of disappointed, wandered arounf lubbock (there is NOTHING to do there), played catchphrase with hayes, deepak, nate, arevelo, olson, mary, ashley, mureji, megan, clarissa, and yasmine for an hour and then got on the bus.
6. watched part of pulp fiction (and drank some of arevelo's special coke stash) on the ride home and then the debate nationals from 1998 (the DVD player was broken and we had no other tapes) and then played truth or dare and ten fingers and then talked with deepak because we were the only people still awake.
all in all a pretty good trip. i definately got closer to some people i hadn't really known that well before (nate, deepak, clarissa, mureji, langford) and found out some unpleasant things about people i thought i knew (namely megan and mary). i was pretty upset to find out that people i thought i knew are complete sluts who sleep around with twenty something year olds they barely know. and go and get drunk every weekend. (sigh).
i think you all know my general policy with sex and drinking. mainly, drink if you want. i don't care. but do it for the right reasons. don't do it to be cool or get friends or self respect. do it because you want to or because you just feel like cutting lose for once. don't do it for anyone but yourself. and do not ever drive after doing it. use your fucking head at least. with sex, i mean come on. just don't sleep around, use protection, and do it with someone you have feelings for and know really well. some people...UGH. they just piss me off with their sexual antics because they are acting like...no no they ARE sluts. i know i joke about sex and stuff a lot but that doesn't mean i think sleeping around is cool. arh. some people just tend to piss me OFF.
so other than that, a great UIL trip. except for the losing. that kind of sucked. i wish i had done this last year...oh well. i mean, it is kinda fun and the people (for the most part) are a lot of fun to hang out with. maybe i'll be on the academic team in college (hahaha).
i dont feel like studying anymore. i dont think i'll be getting a 5 on calc. my perfect streak will be broken. oh crap. i think i need to read the stranger by tomorrow. would probably be a good idea methinks. bleh. tired, kind of pissed at certain SLUTS, missing someone who i found out i relate to really well. same morals. similar life goals. same views of society. same taste in movies. someone i can be totally honest with. funny. same sense of humor. why did i have to find this connection 3 months befopre college? no time for anything to happen. sighhhhh.....maybe a potential band banquet date. possibly. possibly not. maybe i'll just go alone and then be alone forever and die an old maid. that would suck i think. it would be right up there with structural unemployment (haha mcgahey alums unite!!!)
off to relieve the boredom and confusion...
And you know I played it all in here
Where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears
And I threw my whole night down the drain
You know cause everyone says that i'm not the same
Since I changed my name
posted by kellyisdelightful @ 4:59 PM
8 Comments:
It's okay...it happens a lot, you think you know people and then, whoa, what happened?
Anyway, glad you had a good time on the trip. For a minute I thought you were talking about me with the good friend thing then when you said band banquet date I was like, oops, never mind.
Man, I'm an idiot. :-)
yeah pam i wanted to go to band banquet with you, you sexy thang.
hahahah NOT.
and heather...wtf are you on? i like the randomness of the comment, but you gotta admit its a little strange. i hate school.
Yea, just so you know, I am a virgin. And, I drink on the terms you stated. So, yea, didn't want to get any ideas or what not! BUT ETERNAL SUNSHINE AT MY HOUSE TONIGHT = EXCITING! We will discuss this person you connected with and these sluts so prepare yourself for total sarcasm and cynicalism!!! FUCKING AWESOME!
By the way, cynicalism is a new work devised for this occasion, GO WITH IT!
Oh and work = word....just so you know
who might these sluts be? surely not the innocent pb&j.....hope not! yeah, well at leas you have an ap record to break....i hate your intelligence....but i better do as good as you on ap govt...that's all i have to say! glad you had a good trip, we really need to hang out!
Mal~
that we do mal...yeah wasn't talking about you. these people are actually bigger sluts...and we all know thats pretty bad :). we do need to hang out. 20 bucks says i beat you in govt. and its not intelligence. making 5's on AP tests is about confidence. its adrenaline and gut instincts and trusting yourself. you prepare a certain extent, and than you jusat have to trust that you know it. go in there knowing you will make a 5 and you will. how else would i have all 5's?
YOU ARE MY HERO YOU ARE MY HERO YOU ARE MY HERO YOU ARE MY HERO YOU ARE MY HERO
YES, YOU ARE MY HERO
and that is for the loving comment you left on my xanga. in all honesty i let a lot of my emotional stress out in those long rants of really nothingness.....it was yes, what i turned into salyer today....haha, that went well. you liberals aren't so bad, yes i admit it, but although i view some thingson the liberal side, most of my beliefts stick towards the right...not to the extent in which that creep made me out to be. i have no idea who marc_sucks is....the only thing i can think of is someone from my psych class who hates me but i dont know how they would have found my xanga....crazy world, but i deleted his comment and left yours to shine. that book you mentioned sounds really interesting and i think this summer i would like to read it.
thanks for the encouragement about on the ap test....yes, i will bet on your side that you will do better than me, but i really want to do well.....we'll see....hope english went ok this morning...i want details lol
thanks for all your talking help the other day too.....your always there for me when i need ya
mal~
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