"I'm not like anyone...I'm me"
hmm an interesting day. and week. lets see. tues i had my physics test. made a 94. exciting. wed i had my terry costa fitting. found my prom dress. another plus. thursday i had the govt test. i think it went ok. and then i went to my brother percussion concert. today i hung out with nia all afternoon and then i watched Cleopatra. again. i know. im obsessed with that movie. its just so good. its sad though. they just don't make movies like that anymore. its very upsetting. makes me feel sad and empty inside. just like last time. though not as much. i was most amazed when i watched it today by Antony and Octavian. I hadn't realized what a good job the actor who played Octavian did. it was amazing. and of course richard burton kicks ass. as always. brilliant man.Octavian says this thing when antony dies. its something like..."is that how one says it? antony is dead. Antony is dead. The soup is hot. the soup is cold. antony is alive, antony is dead." I think its a fabulous quote. really epitomizes the existentialism in the movie. the idea that all of these people-caesar, antony, octavian, and cleopatra- are all trying to live their life correctly, trying to be great, trying to be remembered. they're trying to create empires, become immortal, and yet give their life meaning through love, honor, and legacy. quite a feat to juggle. i guess i'll just have to settle for the meaning part. i don't really feel like creating a world empire and being known as a brilliant political person who toppled and created empires. i'm just too nice. and i don't believe in war or fighting. kind of puts a damper on my possibilities for empire and conquest. but im not upset. i'll live. its the meaning i'm having problems with. when i die i want people to say "she lived a full life". she did great things. not great as in big and powerful but great as in meaningful and good. i think that would make it all worth while. not that creating and running your own empire wouldn't be great. i just don't think i have enough hubris or ambition to pull it off. and i have far too many morals to be the leader of a country.
Is it possible to be a complete individual and yet still be accepted by society? that is to say, is it possible to be an individual who goes against society's standards etc and emerge victorious in your lifetime? i wonder.
I've decided I want to see all of the good elizabeth taylor movies: national velvet, cat on a hot tin roof, a place in the sun, butterfield 8, who's afraid of virginia woolf, suddenly last summer, giant, raintree county, and possibly the last time i saw paris. quite a list, but i've always contended that any of the old classic movies are worth the effort to track down and watch. and from what i've heard, these are some of them. i also want to see some of the old paul newman, katherine hepburn, james stewert, and carey grant movies. and vivian leigh. and laurence olivier. and richard burton. oh they're all such great actors and actresses. its really upsetting to watch some of these old great movies and realize that ones like that will never be made again because the studios are running out of great scripts and great talents. the golden age of hollywood is over. its been over for awhile, but only when you look back and see the greatness do you realize how far we've fallen in our tastes and talents. i mean, i remember my grandmother always used to say that. she'd say, they just don't make movies like they used to. and i figured that was just her not liking the new movies. but its true. the oldies are better. its very upsetting that there are hardly any great talents left. annette benning is one. and nicole kidman when the mood suits her. and sometimes renee zellweger.; they're all talented, but only annette has the grace and poise of the olden days. and uma thurman is good, but shes too modern to be great. the guys are lacking; there are some good actors, but none of them are amazing or brillliant. there are no more paul newmans, carey grants, montgomery clifts, and richard burtons. makes me sad.
well enough wallowing in the decline of movie talent. time for bed. have to be at interact around 7:30 tomorrow. actually 7. i'm just lazy. bah.
btw, the title quote is elizabeth taylor in butterfield 8.
posted by kellyisdelightful @ 10:27 PM
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