caffeine highs, coffee shops, shades of grey: October 2006

Sunday, October 22, 2006

mon semaine

Today, I did research all day.
Tonight, Alex and I went to dinner at an Italian restaurant downtown and then went to Four Day Weekend, which was hilarious.
Last night involved a Trivial Pursuit Game at IHOP with Allie, Anna, and LD, meeting Heath, Craig, and Kendell at Barnes and Noble, and hanging out with Kate and Elizabeth.

Glorious weeked so far.

We watched Clueless in Jane Austen class on Wednesday, which I had never seen before. It was hilarious.

Alex and I were talking tonight about how time is weird in college. For example, last weekend, a group of us hung out and played TP and watched Annie Hall, but it seems like it was 3 weeks ago. I mean, two days go by and it feels like a week. There's no real routine to my days, and so much random stuff happens. It's so weird. Yet at the same time, it all goes by really fast; the weekend arrives and its like wait, yesterday was Monday. Or it's like it's October 21? I thought it was still September.
Plus we're all out of touch with reality with the news and whatnot. I started listening to The Economist podcasts. Quite enlightening. And disturbing. Stupid world.

My roommate is watching random British comedy. It is 1 am. I want to disconnect our television, because the only reason I have it is for Grey's Anatomy, which I hardly ever watch, and she just watched the fucking dumbest shows. Dumbass.

In other news, it's finally cold (ish) out! At night anyway. It's in the 50s and I love it. Though downtown is really windy for no particular reason. Strange. 70 during the day, 50 at night. Love it. Except for the random days it's 90. WTF mate.

La la la. I found an awesome recording of Rachmaninov's 3rd Piano Concerto. I had 1, 2, and 4, and I got number 3 and um it's awesome. Rachmaninov=love.

School is full of work and reading and paper writing. Life is good. Music is wonderful. Smiling is common. Anger at people chomping food happens a lot too, but it's bearable for now.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

isn't ear sex technically aural sex?

I am listening to The Velvet Underground.

Today I kicked my Jew Lit test's ass. I wrote a 8.5 page essay, which, I might add, was pretty damn good, conisdering it was an in class essay. For all you who are freaking out right now, do not, for it was 8.5 pages in a little blue book. So it was really the equivalent of 4-5 pages. But that is not the point. The point is I win.

Tomorrow is Trivial Pursuit at Old South Pancake House. Rock on.

I went to yoga tonight. It was pretty nice. I've realized I can't meditate very well because I can't get my brain to stop bouncing around from topic to topic. Which also leads to me zoning out in class a lot. Hopefully more yoga will help me control that, because although fun sometimes, really, I cannot focus on anything for a decent amount of time. Except totally uselessness, like Trivial Pursuit or books I am not reading for class, or writing stuff that has nothing to do with what I'm supposed to be writing.

Tonight it Senseless Acts of Comedy and I am brewing coffee. I need to take a shower. I should probably get started on all that.

I went to Central Market earlier and got some Shade Grown Fair Trade Certified Colombian Coffee. AND some delicious granola to go with my soy milk for nummy nummy breakfast.

Kate and I were looking at our schedules today and talking about when we should go up to OU so she can audition and we decided that there would be no better time than OU during Hanukkah. I mean, clearly, no better place to celebrate Hanukkah than Norman, Oklahoma. Thus, we shall bring a manora and a dreidel. Oh yes, get ready to Hanukkah, Norman.

OK. Maybe I shall read for Vietnam class and work on my Sense and Sensibility essay. Or maybe I will play on the internet. Decisions, decisions.

Monday, October 09, 2006

doobie doobie dooooooo

So I've been reading this book called Students Against Tyranny, which is this memoir about a student resistance group called the White Rose in the early 1940s in Germany. These kids (students? young adults? whatever) basicallywrote 4-5 leaflets and distributed them about Munich and were sentanced to death for it in 1943. They opposed the war and their leaflets called for peace and denounced the Nazi party. It's really interesting.
They were so fiercly nationalist and pacifists that they were willing to die if it meant that the German people would start to turn against the war (World War II) and speak out against the war.
They figured, we all die anyway, why not die fighting injustice?

They were pretty cool people.

In other news:

I brought Trivial Pursuit to school. Yes! We are playing this weekend.
Marie Antoinette opens in less than 2 weeks. I've only been waiting to see it since March. I hope it it super awesome.
It is sunny and lovely outside.
My printer is out of ink and I need to go get some more after class today.
I love the BJM. So talented. It's ridiculous.
This weekend was fun for the most part. It was great to see everyone again.
Kate and I decided we are going to go get henna (spelling?) tattoos one day in the nearish future. But we don't know where to go to get one. So, yeah. Whatever.
I like Diet Coke. Even though I don't like Coca-Cola Inc. Oh well.
Our dorm room is like minus 5 degrees. So cold. I am wearing a jacket. Boo.
I don't want to go to French. Maybe we'll actually learn something today. HAHAHAHA! I crack myself up.
I have to read before class. Sense and Sensibility is quite good, but it is SO long. Blargh.
I'm almost done with my London Application. I'm turning it in at the end of the week after a few essay/resume tweakings. And of course after I get ink for my printer.

la la la.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

juxtaposition

"And I know it could be me

I’m always asking for more

I keep running round in circles

I keep looking for a doorway

I’m going to need two lives

To follow the paths I’ve been taking"

-Belle and Sebastian, "Stay Loose"

Sometimes life seems really contradictory. Or at least it does in my head.
Part of me wants to be the quiet studious one, who reads a lot and thinks and is generally just philosophical. And part of the time I am that person.
Another part of me wants to just chill and dig life and take everything one day at a time, one hour at a time, hang out with friends, talk, eat, drink, and generally just be merry.
And yet another part wants to be great, to do something brilliant, to make a difference in the world, to change the system, to make it better, to make this world better, to make is just and fair and real and wonderful.

The three just seem to push and pull in different directions. I wouldn't be happy if one went away, and on different days, each describes me. But it's kind of weird. And a little annoying. Because of course when there are tests, all I want to do is dig life and when I have nothing to do I feel the urge to be responsible and study.

Oh, life.

In other news we had a Fair Trade meeting last night. I'm having mixed feelings about Fair Trade, more about what I want us to do, and what we can do legally on campus. Or what I want us to be and what we are. It's not an issue, just more like I have a vision that I can't seem to get to work.

I think one of my major downfalls is not being able to communicate all the things I am thinking and feeling. They almost can't be translated into words. Or, at least I can't translate them into words.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

stream of conciousness or something like it

Um I LOVE The Velvet Underground.
"Venus in Furs" rocks hardcore.

I'm all lifed out. My brain is full of knowledge, I've been studying all day, I'm really busy and stuff. I just want to stop. I can't focus on anything. I have all this nervous energy built up. I need to go running. I'm addicted to caffeine. I want to get my tests/essays back this week so I know how I did before the long weekend. I'm going home this weekend. Maybe I'll get to see some fun people. I want to watch Donnie Darko.

iTunes has all my money. I need to disable the Music Store again so I will stop buying things. I also need to cut myself off from eBay. Those two things are going to be the reason I won't be able to send my kids to college in 25 years. Ridiculous.

I spent 3ish hours researching for my German History research paper. I hate it when academic essays have titles about the German Resistance to Hitler or are in a book with a title about the German Resistance to Hitler but the essay it not freaking about the German Resistance to Hitler. Seriously. You guys are college professors. Um, title your research accordingly. For serious.

Lou Reed is an amazing songwriter. It's too bad the mainstream sucked him in.

I watched the end of DIG! today and also some of the deleted scenes. Interesting. All the band members got super old. they're like 40. Whoa dang.

My roommate is watching random British comedy. ?

I'm going to read and sleep except I'm not tired. Maybe I'll just lay down and listen to The Velvet Underground. We're reading Sense and Sensibility in Jane Austen class. That book makes no sense so far. Persuasion was not very good. I hate to say it, but I think Austen peaked with Pride and Prejudice (her first book I believe) and then it was all downhill from there. Harper Lee was a smart woman.

I wish I didn't see spots when I read. It's annoying. Mainly because it's only sometimes. I'm glad it's not all the time, but if it was, at least I would get used to it.

The End.

caffeine highs, coffee shops, shades of grey