caffeine highs, coffee shops, shades of grey: April 2006

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

JILL IS A GENIUS!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRUh67DQpso

Jillian and I are SO doing this in town sqaure this summer

Saturday, April 22, 2006

When I was just a baby, my momma told me “son, always be a good boy: don’t play with guns.” But I shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die...

So. Having to write lots of essays is not fun.
Next weekend we're going to Possom Kingdom for the day (Saturday). YAY!
Tonight we're going to this Main Street Arts Festival thing downtownish. Should be fun.
Tomorrow: Grey's Anatomy party and then watching Reefer Madness (the musical). We're pretty excited about this.
I went to yoga class this morning. I need to do that on Saturday mornings more often. Good for waking up and relaxing.
Today: lots of homework, paper editing, paper writing, researching, reading, and all that fun stuff.
Pam inspired me to pick up The Sound and the Fury last night. Oh William, how I missed you. I Heart that book like no other.
"I give [this watch] to you not that you may remember time, but that you may forget it now and then for a moment and not spend all your breath trying to conquer it. Because no battle is ever won he said. They are not even fought. The field only reveals to man his own folly and despair, and victory is an allusion of philosophers and fools."
I think that is my favorite quote from this book. Fantastic.
Don't you hate it when life doesn't work out right? I mean like plans and stuff. Rather boo hiss. Bearable, but annoying.
Last night we watch Alice in Wonderland. What a fucked up movie. I love it.
And I went to Chicken Express with Kate, Megan, and Bobby and we talked about music and stuff for like, two hours. It was the best.
Back to blah.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

today is the Monday of your life

Last night we watched The Motorcycle Diaries for out Social Justice Film Festival. Today we talked about Girlfriend in a Coma in America Dream Class. They made me think:

1. What am I doing with my life? Here I am worrying about a test or a boy or what I'm going to wear tomorrow when there are people who have no homes and no food and who have to worry about not getting killed everyday of their lives. Their top priority is survival.

2. How am I going to make a difference in the world? I've always wanted to be a teacher. But today I was thinking, what the hell good is that going to do? How is that going to make someone's life better who really needs it? How is that going to help stop war and violence and poverty and hatred? What difference can I really make by becoming a teacher?

3. If I'm not going to be a teacher, what the hell am I going to do with my life? Become a lawyer? Trivial, to a certain extent as well. How is a lawyer going to stop hunger? How is a lawyer going to stop war?

4. I feel like I'm wasting my time. What is the point of all of this? An education to be successful but for what? What good is being successful if you don't do something good and true and leave a good impression when you die? How am I going to improve humanity? How am I going to make life better for others? How am I going to help end pain and suffering as an English teacher or a history professor or a lawyer?

5. Today was Tuesday. I had the feeling (you all know what I'm talking about) where I just couldn't wait for class to be over, where I couldn't wait for the day and week to be over. Then all of a sudden I felt that way about life. Not like suicidally. But like, today is the Monday of my life. I hate Mondays. I feel like its stagnant and I'm wasting my time sometimes. Everything seems so stupid and pointless when I think about the plight of others around the world. So I can buy Fair Trade coffee. SO WHAT?! It's not enough. It doesn't help enough people. It needs to be bigger. We need to do MORE. There needs to be no more war, there needs to be no more hunger, no more suffering because of poverty and hatred. We need to realize that we are one race. We are all humans and we all deserve to be treated as human beings. We need to respect and love each other instead of exploiting and killing each other. But how? How do I do this?
How do I make the difference?

And what the hell am I doing with my life?

Options to fix this:
Join the Peace Corps.
Become an activist
Become a politician.
Change the way people think.
Make sure the truth is known.
Start a revolution.
Become a doctor and travel the world helping people.

Not a very good list. Peace Corps is the only option where I think I could actually do something worthwhile.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Le Jour de Soleil

I like The Dandy Warhols and The Brian Jonestown Massacre. Mad props to Jill for introducing me to them.
Happy Easter. Bunnies and chocolate. A good cause for a holiday.
Back at school. Really tired. Need to catch up on sleep.
Crawford was ok. It could have been better, but it wasn't a total waste of a day.
Phantom was on Thursday. It was freaking amazing.
This weekend was a lot of fun. Seeing Thomas and Kate was, as always, amazing. Kate's party...good god, so much fun.
Research papers are blah.
I totally forgot to go to my eye appointment two weeks ago. Oops.
Driving around and listening to good music makes me happy.
Its too hot outside.
I am tired. But not enough to actually fall asleep.
I think that foreign languages are more beautiful than English. Especially when spoken. English, though wonderful, is rather coarse when compared to French or Italian. Its just the way things turned out. Weird.
Kate is my hero for this:
wheeeeedinosaurs: how was the egg hunt today?
Fineartsbabe: i got 4 eggs
Fineartsbabe: yippee
wheeeeedinosaurs: hahahahaah good job
wheeeeedinosaurs: was one of them your mother's?
wheeeeedinosaurs: with a bible verse
Fineartsbabe: no-but i did get some money from the camon (sp?) islands, which was just as worthless
Which reminds me, the Iced Tea Wars have begun. I shall win.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

randomness

There are far too many research papers to be done. Very boo hiss.
Life is generally good. I lack motivation for school work.
This weekend was fun. I heart dogsitting.
Phantom is on Thursday. EXCITING!
And the protest on Friday.
Homework on Friday and Saturday.
And job hunting of course.
On Saturday.
I think professors have an evil plan to make all essays and such due at the same time. Which is not very nice.
I watched Kill Bill Vol 1 last night but didn't finish it.
Jazz concert tonight.
and waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much reading. bleh.
Back to King Lear and Rebel in Cuba.
Is death from reading possible?

Saturday, April 08, 2006

wooo saturday night

The song "San Fransisco (Be Sure to Wear Flowers in Your Hair)" is a great song. But it makes me very said. Which is strange. Because it is not a sad song.

I do not like writing stupid papers. Writing papers is not too bad, it is writing the stupid ones that bugs me. Like the one I am working on right now. BOOOO HISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Friday, April 07, 2006

I want to shake Cindy's hand

So Jill called me last night and asked if I wanted to go protest in Crawford Texas this coming Friday (in like seven days) and at first I was unsure whether or not I really wanted to. I mean I wanted to, but did I really want to go to the president's house and protest with a bunch of peace activists? Iffy. Then I saw this today:
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I was talking to someone last night and the idea of voting for third party candidates as throwing away a vote came up. When I vote, I intend to vote for the Green Party. Probably not going to win. But it's what I believe. So for me, its not a waste of a vote.This coming weekend will not be a waste of my time or putting myself in a stupid position because this is something I believe strongly in. I want our government to change and I think there are enormous injustices in this world that need to be fixed. I think our government causes too many people pain to be allowed to continue what it is doing. But I will never, EVER, advocate violence as the means to achieve anything. It can be done without it. Peace is the only way for me. This protest is a gathering of peace activists. This is something I need to do. I need to experience this. Hopefully it won't get out of control and the FBI won't go wacko and arrest a bunch of people. Hopefully they won't see Cindy Sheehan, probably the greatest peace activist of our time, as being a psycho terrorist, which is how they've been trying to paint her. Regardless, I am going. There are risks, but this is what I believe in. Period.

Some say we are fighting a pointless fight. That nothing is ever going to change. That's what you think. We're going to change this place. Just wait and see.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

The US government makes me rageous

I am seriously beginning to lose faith in the U.S. goverment. It's ridiculous. The different departments don't work together and always end up cancelling each other out and whenever it starts with a good idea, the inefficiency is bound to make it so nothing works or gets done. Case in point: the U.S. intervention in Guatemala in 1954. $10 million promised/set aside for immediately after the intervention. What happened? The U.S. governemt putsed around for 6+ months and then gave about half. Later, emergency aid was requested (another $10 mil) but the FOA gave $1 million because they didn't want to give Guatemala too much attention since then other Central American countries would expect the same treatment. And don't even get me started about the lack of intelligence regarding objectives after the intervention. The same thing happened in Iraq. No real plan for the future and no exit strategy that doesn't cripple the new government. Not that any of the original reasons for going in to these things are legitimate, but on top of all that we (and by we I mean our government, our "representative" of the people)always manage to go in blind. It's ridiculous. It's so ineffecient and no one ever thinks to reform it. No one ever thinks that the system itself has flaws. I'm not saying capitalism has flaws or democracy has flaws or the checks and balances system has flaws. I'm saying the different branches and offices don't work well together; this needs to be reformed. The election system is messed up: reform here as well. The way our government relates to other countries is fuuuuuuuuuuuuucked up. We need to stop this. I could go on. But I think you get the idea. And I have homework. RAR.

Les Mis is happiness

Today was pretty much the best day ever. In French, our assignment was pushed back to Friday. Sweet action.

In Western Civ our paper was pushed back to Monday. I got the class to give our professor a round of applause. Go me.

Then I went to the Honors office and pretty much said I don't want to take LA Civ I next semester, make this work and give me Honors credit for my 5 on my AP World History Test. This resulted in me having completed the Lower Division Honors in one year instead of two like it's meant for. I so rule. The lady was like well next step is to begin your Senior Research Thesis thing. And I was like um I'm a freshmen so I'm gonna lay off until at least Spring 07. And she was like ok. Which reminds me I'm not going to London until Fall 07 because the French class I need is not available. boo hiss.

I get to take the Vietnam War class I wanted to take. Yay me.

I downloaded the Original Broadway Recording of Les Mis for $2.93. Um I rule.
I've been listening to it for the past hour. I've had goosbumps almost the whole time. It could be the fact that its a little cold in my room, but when the music stops, the goosebumps stop, so I think not. If I can see this play this summer I will probably just about die happy.

**EDIT**
and it just keeps getting better:

DeLay Is Quitting Race and House, Officials Report By CARL HULSE
Weakened by a corruption scandal, the former majorityleader, Tom DeLay, has decided to leave Congress, Houseofficials said.http://www.nytimes.com/2006/04/04/washington/04delay.html?th&emc=th

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