bleh
today was somewhat eventful. got up. ate breakfast. showered. ran some errands. went to best buy and got the New Found Glory self-titled album; its pretty good. im rocking out to it right now. then i went to the UIL competition in Denton. ms. grey was driving us; scary and cool cus she multitasks a bit too much for my tastes but she has a really nice car. at the competition we got our butts kicked. i didn't know the answers to half the questions, or the people mentioned in them, and megan didn't know the people who the people the essay was asking about were. that was not so good. then my dad and i had dinner and took a couple of hours putting pictures on a CD for NCL.ugh. i have a NCL meeting tomorrow. i hate running the meetings because everybody just wants to talk all the time and no one listens. the whole point of the organization is to help us act more adult and mature and become more aware of the problems of those around us, yet most of the girls could care less and act like they're little kids. they get offended when asked to be quiet, gossip, talk about people behind their backs, and complain about everything. i'm just like rar. and no cares about the chartitable part of the organization, they just care about socializing. i just wish they would learn to be more polite and considerate of others.
now for the deep/meaningful/introspective part of the blog entry. i've been feeling very strange lately. i don't mean like sick strange, but emotionally strange. i feel like i can't relate to anyone around me. its very strange. it really reminds me of some of the scenes in Garden State; i just find myself sitting there wondering why am i talking to these people? why am i here? why am i not doing something i really enjoy? don't get me wrong, i like history and i enjoy doing the UIL team. but after the test today, kristin and kaki and i were sitting there and we were talking but it was like i wasn't there. i mean, they wern't ignoring me, but i felt very detached. i think that's my feeling of the week this week: detached. i am choosing to blame mrs. eyer because it was during her class yesterday that this whole emotionally detached feeling started. i mean, obviously its not her fault, but she is currently the person i am associating this whole problem with because she was lecturing about Supreme Court cases when this started. so i am currently blaming her.
today has just been bleh. i haven't really done anything productive, unless you count reading some of Crime and Punishment without falling asleep. i guess thats quite an accomplishment by my standards. ugh, i have to finish part IV for tues, memorize my solo, learn my ensemble, fill out scholarship and financial aid forms, go to NCL, work on my research paper some, study for french (i hate that class), do physics problems and study for the quiz, and do a buttload of calculus problems because i am seriously behind on hw in that class. bah to school!
man what a list. whatever happened to actually having a break over the weekend? i mean, christmas break was the only time i didn't really have homework besides some english. i could actually relax. i wish i could do that again. i am so stressed with all this school work. i like my teachers...well most of them anyway, but they are just no fun when it comes to giving us a break for a day or two. its just this constant pressure and tons of work. i like learning and bettering myself, but some of this stuff is completely unproductive. well, i mean most of it is helpful except for french which is just busywork and calculus, which is helpful, but a little much on the sheer amount of hw problems he gives us. i love scheffer, but those problems are like getting run over by a truck. well, enough of my complaining. im off to do something productive; can't waste the whole day now can i?
quote of the day:
kristin: "if i were a prostitute, my name would be princess leigha...you know, lay-a.hahaha!"
posted by kellyisdelightful @ 9:00 PM
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